Feeling alone

    How is it that I can be surrounded by people and still feel so alone. It's funny how my depression seems to creep up on me at the worst possiable times. Im still not over what happend with the husband..(that's a completly diffrent story) now I feel like I have no one here for me. The Husband is going back to his old ways tired or not he could make an effort to show he loves me. I feel so lonely..it's like i have friends here but they aren't like the friend's i've had before.. every time I see a post about my "friends" getting together to do something and i'm not invited it's like a stab in the back.. I think I have best friends here but I don't I have no one. I mean I have the baby but that's not the same.. I don't have someone I can call and hang out with when ever. I don't have some one im inspearble from. Even now Im okay with being away from the husband all day while hes at work. I miss having best friends and having that connection with another person. Why is it that every time I put my self out there for friends im always like the last resort or the friend people have just to have one.. I want to be some one's best friend again.. i feel like crying my eyes out.. i hate feeling so alone like i feel now. Oh well im gonna try and get some sleep now.. wish me luck lovely loves..